Tuesday, May 29, 2012

One Year Ago - "She is Yours"

A year ago we were sitting in a small waiting room full of people, awaiting our turn to enter the office of the Ethiopian Judge. My stomach was in knots. We knew that only about 50% of cases were approved at the first court hearing. The Ethiopian government agency responsible for writing letters of approval to the Judge had reduced their caseload to only a handful of letters per week (mainly as a result of taking more time to scrutinize/review each case). Would the approval letter be there for the Judge to approve our case? Would we be the lucky ones? I did my best to think positively but prepared for the worst. I knew we would eventually pass court. But if we didn't pass on the first court date, it would mean the difference between bringing our daughter home within 2 months, or bringing her home 4-6 months later.

We had just returned to Addis Ababa from our long trip from Southern Ethiopia to meet Meskie. She was our daughter, regardless of what a Judge had to say. Leaving her was the hardest thing we ever had to do. She remembered her younger sister and she didn't understand why she couldn't come home with us. She already called us mama and papa. She was already so loving. She was ours. My heart hurt to leave her. We had no choice.

And so there we were, waiting for our name to be called, wondering if we would be overjoyed or overcome with sadness.

Overjoyed we were.

Pictures of our first meeting with Meskie.

We only got to spend a few hours together.
In that short time we learned just how playful, loving, fun and sweet our little Meskie was.


"She is Yours"

Thursday, May 3, 2012

Finding Time

Some days I feel like I blink and the day is over. We are in full swing with kids' activities. Lots of juggling. And I don't think I even know the half of it yet with my kids still being fairly young. So thankful for grandparents who live close by and are willing to help. It's not uncommon to have 3 games/activities at the same time on the same day.

As much as I love watching their sports, dance, etc., I also love just having down time. Time to search for frogs and salamanders, climb trees, play a game of baseball in our cul-de-sac, draw roads with sidewalk chalk for the scooters, blow bubbles, paint rocks. My challenge as my kids gets older will be to create the down time for them.

Time to do nothing. Or do everything their heart desires. Time to sit still. Or run and jump and climb. Time to think. And time to look each other in the eye and talk about our day. Because on the days when I hardly have time to pee, my kids grow up too fast and I find myself wishing time would stand still.